Prepare the Way

Joel 2:12-17 talks about God;s return, and how we need to prepare the way, and call all men to repent. I normally just read this verse as if it is just a vocab word, it has no meaning beyond what is written before me, and is completely understood to be blunt and apparent.... I was so ready to talk to my worship team about it, and give AWESOME input... but i had never read this verse out loud... and there is something different about reading a verse outloud. it just changes the way the verse is in your mind, and everything has a greater effect and you notice more what you are saying. It's crazy. i was reading, and i was completely in awe of the words i had just read.... like...
If God came back at this moment, i would NOT be prepared at all. and the only way i know that i can be saved is to have a completely pure heart and renewed mind. This is obviously something i do not amount to yet, but is definitely something that i am asking God for. The cry of my heart is for my city to be saved because of Gods amazing love and mercy... Instead of showing God's glory though, i have been trying to make it about me...
In order for God to save my family, and my friends, and my generation, i have to start by offering myself as a living sacrifice, because this is true worship (romans 12:1)
it isn't about what I'VE done in the past, it is about what i am currently allowing GOD to do through me, in the present. So, i'm probably not helping anyone who is actually going to read this, things just make more sense to me when i write them out... sorry. lol....
i'm going to do something a little odd.... but i'm going to write out a prayer right now....

God,
God i pray for the hearts of the city to be opened. and not because i want my friends to be with me for eternity, which i do, but because i know that this will show your glory and honor. I pray that every eye will see and every ear will hear your truth. God start with me. i don't want to be like the pharisees, i want to be an example of what your love can do, so move in me O God. God show mercy on me, that i may forerun your coming and help sound the alarm for my generation. God i don't know what it is like to be hungry, or desperate for anything... But God, i want to be DESPERATE and completely ABANDONED to you. this is my cry. that my heart, and the hearts of my peers, and my generation will be completely abandoned to desperation for you. God put a cry in our hearts for your love, and your revelation.
Amen.

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